It`s been a few weeks,since i`ve been searching for a book called 'The Rose That Grew from Concrete'

The poems are written by the late rapper Tupac when he was 17 years old..there were about 71 poems combined together..i cant find it in Best Eastern :( oh well,if you cant find it there..then i guess theres no way you can find it in other book stores in brunei :s

I manage to find some of his poems online..a samples of it...

In the event of my Demise by Tupac

In the event of my Demise
when my heart can beat no more
I Hope I Die For A Principle
or A Belief that I had Lived 4
I will die Before My Time
Because I feel the shadow's Depth
so much I wanted 2 accomplish
before I reached my Death
I have come 2 grips with the possibility
and wiped the last tear from My eyes
I Loved All who were Positive
In the event of my Demise

I Cry by Tupac

Sometimes when I'm alone
I Cry,
Cause I am on my own.
The tears I cry are bitter and warm.
They flow with life but take no form
I Cry because my heart is torn.
I find it difficult to carry on.
If I had an ear to confiding,
I would cry among my treasured friend,
but who do you know that stops that long,
to help another carry on.
The world moves fast and it would rather pass by.
Then to stop and see what makes one cry,
so painful and sad.
And sometimes...
I Cry
and no one cares about why.

The Rose That Grew From Concrete by Tupac

Did you hear about the rose that grew from a crack in the concrete?
Proving nature's law is wrong it learned to walk with out having feet.
Funny it seems, but by keeping it's dreams, it learned to breathe fresh air.
Long live the rose that grew from concrete when no one else ever cared.

And Tomorrow by Tupac

Today is filled with anger, fueled with hidden hate.
Scared of being outkast, afraid of common fate.
Today is build on tragedies which no one want's to face.
Nightmares to humanity and morally disgraced.
Tonight is filled with Rage, violence in the air.
Children bred with ruthlessness cause no one at home cares.
Tonight I lay my head down but the pressure never stops,
knowing that my sanity content when I'm droped.
But tomorrow I see change, a chance to build a new,
build on spirit intent of heart and ideas based on truth.
Tomorrow I wake with second wind and strong because of pride.
I know I fought with all my heart to keep the dream alive.

Fallen Star by Tupac

They could never understand
what u set out 2 do
instead they chose 2
ridicule u
when u got weak
they loved the sight
of your dimming
and flickering starlight
How could they understand what was so intricate
2 be loved by so many, so intimate
they wanted 2 c your lifeless corpse
this way u could not alter the course
of ignorance that they have set
2 make my people forget
what they have done for much 2 long
2 just forget and carry on
I had loved u forever because of who u r
and now I mourn our fallen star

A young heart with an old soul by Tupac

How can there be peace?
How can I be in the depths of solitude
When there are two inside of me?
This duo in me causes the perfect opportunity
To learn and live twice as fast
As those who accept simplicity...

Ambition over Adversity by Tupac

Take ones adversity
Learn from their misfortune
Learn from their pain
Believe in something
Believe in yourself
Turn adversity into ambition
Now blossom into wealth

In The Depths of Solitude by Tupac

A young heart with an old soul
How can there be peace?
How can I be in the depths of solitude
When there are two inside of me?
This duo in me causes the perfect opportunity
To learn and live twice as fast
As those who accept simplicity...

Can You See the Pride In the Panther by Tupac

Can You See the Pride In the Panther
As he grows in splendor and grace
Topling obstacles placed in the way,
of the progression of his race.
Can You See the Pride In the Panther
as she nurtures her young all alone
The seed must grow regardless
of the fact that it is planted in stone.
Can You See the Pride In the Panthers
as they unify as one.
The flower blooms with brilliance,
and outshines the rays of the sun.

If you are down with him,you`ll get the idea of his true-st thoughts and feeling...just close your eyes and pictured what he painted for you..I CRY,was the one that captured my attention.i felt what he was trying to share with me,although i cant fully fell his pain..it aint easy standing strong,when you feel like the whole world has turn its back on you..your alone and you have no one to turn to..CHECK this link,it`s a lyric called 'Thugz Mansion' in there..if u see clearly..there are a few people he mentioned such as 'Marvin Gaye,Jackie Wilson,Sam Cook,Billie Holiday and Malcom' the first 4 are great singers..i would have never know them if i didnt look at his lyrics.. and Malcom is someone who fight for his own community.. so yea..i`ll stop here. scared that u might get bored lol..

Make-Up Kit... A Powerful Tool

After seeing this pictures...now i would be very careful when meeting pretty girls.. dont get what i mean? check this out

The Pretty Gurl In Make Up

The Gurl WITHOUT Make Up (No offence,she looks like a guy :s...like the one guy from stephen chow`s movie who always dig his nose)

HARD to believe right?

I`ll show you hows they do it..

Make-up kit is such a powerful tool...i have to be very careful from now on..lol..know what im` saying, Mr Ang C.K? haha also goes to the guys out there

Out of the blues..my ex chatted with me..surprising indeed..cause i know she was mad at me..and the first few lines i can see she`s being a fake ass..

then we talk about the relationship

after that,she told me her 'bf' is 21 years old

the 'well that good' answer, i was refeering to the 'we are happy answer' but her ego was too fast..she said the last two sentences..

I thought what thing she come and chat with me..thought she has some problems and needed help..eventhough break up still can become friends right? i dont mind helping a friend in need,i`ll try to help..no doubt about it...mana tau, come to me with all this rubbish..bitch please,get a life la..u think i would get jealous or unhappy over this shyt?? Lol, to tell u the truth..i was laughing all the way while chatting with you..best believe that! i really hope that she would ask me out and tell me this.. straight to my face..so i can act very sad and give this i regret-leaving-you-look but deep down inside i`m laughing my ass off...

You may think i`m cruel or mean..either way..i`m being myself..you bitch with me..i`ll bitch with u..thats wht way it goes... and i believe in karma..what goes around comes around...

It`s been a year plus..i thought you have move on and grew from everything..to be a better person in another words.. but tonight shows that..ur still the same old you,u still dont know what to do,the words you say,the way you behave,indicates your still the same old you..in another words, ur still have that immature thinking..then i dont know how to help you...

Something Nastyy...

wtf is that?

John Cena Raps?

No hatin..but this looks scripted..dont you think? haha

These two days.. i very stress ah...wa piang! yesterday quarrel with my buyer..very cibai that fcking kaling.. ' Lin si' with me there oh..kan ni nia...i very fired up when i think of it..even now,when i`m typing it on my blog..just you wait..one day i`ll get u back,mathafucker

And today two 'TI-Ki LAN' (stubborn dick) appear in my way again...really shitty..what a day.. also another cibai kaling.. what to do..90+ percent of my customers are klings..and i`m not being racist here..some are nice and some are bastardy..they made me this way...i have no way out,but to put it in my blog.. and another one is a muara town customer .. she ordered from me 9 cartons of phildelphia cream cheese 250g..thats a lot u know.. and shes known for her return goods... meaning expire goods..she don care..she forcefully return it back to you..we as salesman are fcking afraid of it..ask any salesman..which doesnt..return goods..cut commision and kena tiao(screw) by boss..

And of koz, i have to becareful with this kind of ppl..am i not right? then one day she find me to order the phildelphia cream cheese 2kg..so i told her,we dont have stock.. cibai, ur 9 carton havent even finish wanna order again...owez say ur the goods very 'laku'(hot),i can smell bullshit all the way from muara to gadong thru the fone..so i dint give her.

This morning i was there..and i was surprised to see the 2kg cheese..and found out that a comp buy from us n supply to them..waliew..really one big turn man -_-" this time is not a kling but a chinese lady in her late 40`s, cause they are from muara town..and they mostly speak malay.. and you know what she say to me?

eh,eh...tengok kau sombong ah..inda mau bagi ku stock
(eh,eh...see you`re so proud that you dint want to give me stock)
tengok skrng ku dapat stock udah..
(see now, i`ve have the stock)

From that moment..i can see that bitch`s smirk on her face..like she owned me..lol,as if..another typical bruneian attitude..tsk tsk tsk..the stock also ordered from us wat..we stop it..then u ma no need to sell la..easy as that...

i guess i need to learn to be super patient with these kind of people...but i dint know how long i can stand..if i explode..i dont know what will happen :s i`m impatients sumtimes..

I MISS lil ethana
It`s been weeks i didnt see ya,
how ya doing?
i hope ur fine
i`ve been busy
Sorry i cudnt come by to say hi

i remember d first day
you were born
i was there
now you`ve grown
the picture is all clear

i miss ur laughter
and your exciting expression
while ur kick ur legs around
and punch ur lil hand

i shall see u soon lil baby :)

Went to escapade for dinner just now..it`s was a superd meal thanks to Mr Chee Huat for his generous offer :D..Thankz man!! hehe i was very very full..i cant even walked properly haha..it was a pleasent evening..we were having a great time..sidney making some silly jokes bout me having a malay name,named 'Ali' -_- wtf and he oways related me to B.A.A (Black African Americans) lol..his such a comedian sometimes haha..

As i walked to my car.and i saw this...

At first i say to myself 'Cibai..dont tell me i kena saman ah!! kima.at gadong also kena saman!!' you have no idea..how many times i kena saman,till i scared..i have a lil phobia on it already :s shyt`s crazy man haha..u can believe me on that..sekali i turn around..it`s an advertisement... i was like 'Chew~, lucky' if i kena again this time..my balls will be very heavy and uncomfortable..somemore in gadong again..really fcked up lo me..haha

I was introduced to another game in Facebook called 'Elven Blood' oh shyyttt...and when i say..'OHHH..SHHYTT' you know wassup.. yea..just like mob warz..i`m ADDICTED..got daym..Mob Warz and Elven Blood.. how lifeless can i get :S SSAAFFEEE MMEEE!!!

Seeing you..does makes me happy..that smile of yours,does makes me go crazy..my heart beats fast..when im near you..my face turns red like an tomato..every movement u do..is going slo mo..the picture`s clear..so fcuk HD, they cant see how clear my view is..

Ur presense`s still on my mind
all this time
when i`m down
all i gotta do
is think of you
all the up`s and downs
that come around
will all drown

the secrets i held
are locked away
i look at the sky
for a brand new day
hoping this feeling
will go away
no matter how long it takes
i`ll just wait..

It`s that time of year again..i would like to take a time out to wish Emily and Metis a HAPPY BIRTHDAY today :D

The Gayboy,the one in green i mean.. sorry i dont have emily`s picture..

As the years gone by,i`ve seen how this faggot evolved...what i mean was..from his old skool self to his new skool self.. from chubby specky boy to womenly handsomely look..it`s pretty amazing to watch his evolution thou..it gives me two types of feeling 1) as if i`m watching my son growing up and 2) as if i`m rearing my own pokemon lol..jus kidding chigga ;)

As the times goes by..we know how gay he has moved to..although he doesnt admits it..but it`s all good..we still accept you of who you are.. like tony-punanie once said 'A true man admits his own mistakes and weakness whereas a girly man wake up 5 in th morning to do his hair'... word. haha. but dont laugh..his bisex metro-affect has also play a big part in all of us..he inspire us with fashionably looks as well as accessories to makes us look neat and tidy :)

If not we will end up like this...

i dont wanna be like Bob...

So, anyways..your another year older young man!!...that means there will be more challenges ahead of you..so i wish you luck in all you do ;) again i wish you Happy Birthday and all the best.i`ll see you when i see you..

Your Song

Its a little bit funny this feeling inside
Im not one of those who can easily hide
I dont have much money but boy if I did
Id buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a traveling show
I know its not much but its the best I can do
My gift is my song and this ones for you

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that its done
I hope you dont mind
I hope you dont mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while youre in the world

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well theyve got me quite cross
But the suns been quite kind while I wrote this song
Its for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see Ive forgotten if theyre green or theyre blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes Ive ever seen


I found this picture on the net..somehow it made me laugh a lot...

Got Daym~

Smile people~~ :D

You say that i`m weak,
i cant stand still,
u say your strong,
coz you do things on your own

The words you say,
the action you use,
from head to toe,
it was all rude,
but it`s all gud..
i wont waste my time,
hating some fool,
who aint got no clue,
on wat he`s saying or doing..

You lil pussy
you talk so much shyt,
but in reality,
u`re just a nobody
you were so cocky,
you said when u reach 40,
you`ll be rich and wealthy,
you wouldnt acknowledge me,

But guess what?
i dont give a fuck
whether you do or do not
your just a stain
that doesnt need to maintain
so, *poof* sonawabeech~

Till my dying days,i`ll remember those words u said to me, in front of your daddy to me..when u were saying it so proudly and confidently.."When i reach 40..i`ll be rich and wealthy..i wouldnt wanna know or acknowledge you"