Time After Time

Things ain`t going well in the family..for quite a long time..i don`t really know how to start, really..this is the only place that i can say out anything...my happiness, sadness and everything..

The reason i wrote is down is because it`s kept in my heart for so long and it`s getting sour. i have no choice but to release it..

As days and years pass by, u`ve been watching me grow..from a baby to a child to a teenager and to a man..it`s been 20 plus years and your still holding on and your 90 plus..i do wonder if i could live until that old age sometimes, as time passed by ur memories gets weaker and fragile..u`ll get angry at small things and u`ll forget what u said..bottom line is..i`m afraid it`ll get worst..coz i know when a person gets old..they will have a kind of old people diseases,

i`ve been told that my grandma has been seeing things..about someone looking for her..which never happened.at first i didnt care what she said..coz maybe she was dreaming..but my uncle came from malaysia today..to visit my grandma to see how shes doing. mom told him about the story that my grandma saw someone (someone she knew) waiting for her outside the house.. what we believed is that..it`s 'those things' that transformed itself into someone she knew to look for her.. as i heard this, i honestly say.. i was scared,SAD and feeling goosebumps..coz i know that the answer is quite true..coz she changed a lot compared to lasttime.. it made me realised something..that i had never spend much time with her before..i believe i need to do my job as a grandson..i dont wanna regret..i know when that day come..i wont be able to take it..its too much.