This is a great song i have to say...

Independent gurls are hard to find..the type of gurls,some of us guys like ;) *hands down* .clingy gurls makes u feel shitty..no space at all..'where u go,who u with,what u doing' it`s like ur a criminal and ur gurl is the police :s something like CSI.

Bottom Line: A girl who`s independent,who`s do/got her own thing are SEXXYYYY

im so drained,
i dont know what to say,
words i spit out,
doesnt come out my way,

too much pressure on my mind,
cant think well,
hope im fine,
just need some time,
to release this tension,
thats killing me constantly...


it seems the whole world seems to be love sick...haha,and are you love sick? :p

speaking of love sick..have you ever realised that..artist new or old,east or west ,they always started their first song..which is a love song..and hopefully they made it into the charts.. it the world really that love sick?? example like in taiwan and hongkong,majority are all love songs.. it`s either i dump/leave you or likewise or i love you but shy to tell you..all those 'ojipala'.it`s very much the same concept dont you think so? but i aint hating love songs thou..but
cant they make some songs like involved in the world we living in,with the politics going on,where everyone need to be strong to hold on whenever life fcks the hell out of u..

You might be thinking ..what songs am i talking about? well, songs by Michael Jackson- Heal the world, B.E.P- wheres the love,are the two examples. i use to love boy bands but now i`m just a 'so-so' fan. love shyt will kill ur brains,thats 4 sho..will you listen to backstreetboys if ur confidence is low? no right? haha. they will tell you ' i dont care who you are ,where ya from,don`t care what u did..as long as you love,baby'. sometimes we need to have some - supportive songs...songs that might wake the world..that wake the minds of the people..we are living in a reality world here,not disney at all :s ..i think emo people should get a life..seiously..it`s like being sad is their hobby :s

i find words like 'I would die for you' plain retarded and ridiculous..if you die, who gonna take care of her? u aint getting no pussy no mo,homo. i remember back in my era..where boys who are so in love..print their gf names on their bball jerseys..and wear it to play, i find it funny lo..haha well, from my point of view..you dont have to show everyone how much you love her so obviously la..as long as you do everything from ur heart,it`s all gud..sometimes i wonder,when the couple breaks up..what will happen to d jersey lol..if they throw away..it`s like throwing they money away hoho. love can make you do a lot of stupid things..thats for sure lol

I did light a colourful firework for a gurl once at the roadside,it`s was for her birthday..i felt like a criminal while digging a small hole for the firework to stand still and there are a few passerby stopping by to see what the hell am i doing..the area i was at,is a govermnet area..so if i got caught..i`ll be going to jail thou..

like i said, love makes u do the stupid-iest thing...

It`s that once in a lifetime thing

A few weeks before, a friend of mine called me..she said she wanted to hand me something,i asked what was she gonna give me..she told me it`s a surprised..so,we meet up somewhere..cause i like surprises(who doesn`t) haha

When we met..i asked her,what`s the surprised ..and then she gave it to me...my eyes were is disbelief....my hands were trembling..as i move my hands to receive it... the surprise was this...

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Now this is SURPRISING INDEED!!!

This is what you called a red bomb!! lol.. A good friend of mine Michelle is getting married..

This is her wedding picture.Taken from Wilni (Hope you dont mind hehe)

Ok...Let me share with you the story,,the day we went for the wedding..yes,i`m not the only one going..Mr Wong a.k.a W.c is also going haha. anyways..on the day both our time was crazy..i have to work quickly and good,so i could make it in time for the wedding..mind you,the wedding is at KB, not in bandar haha.so..understand la ;)

Reached home at 5 sumtin..the wedding card says,the ceremony starts at 6.30, so..in my experience of attending weddings..when they say 6.30..it usually starts at about 7.30 (perhaps),so i was wating for my 'driver' to pick me up, apparetly he was also busy with his field work..he flew from Labi to Bandar then to KB.we left bandar at about 7 sumtin almost 8(i know we are late)

We were speeding carefully along the road to kb and its fcking crazy too haha..time is so hectic...it`s like every 35 mins i look at the time and say..'We are so fcking late .but who cares lol' and we reached there at about 9.10pm anf we are two hour plus late..aint that ccrraazzyy?? we feel 'malu' when we entered the stairs and as we reached..ohh mmyy goooddd~ it was an ULTRA AWKWARD feeling..i`ll tell ya that..there were a lot of people looking at us :s ,even the waiter thought we came to eat at the wrong nite,the nice waiter find us a table and we quickly sit to decrease our 'maluness' :s

WWooo...never felt so embaressed in attending weddings lol..so this is a reminder to all you people out there..never attend a wedding late,if not u`ll be like us..

We sat there like for an hour plus then the wedding dinner ended..and it was also the fastest wedding i ever attended to..

It`s defenitely happy to see a gud friend finally fell in love,get married and live a happy life :)
Not like some of us guys,who get drunk and naughty or high and lifeless...it`s freakin sad...
where have all the girls gone too? i would like a naughty but nice type of gurl..and if your that and you got a nice ass..hit me up baby!! know what im saying? ;)

To top it off, i would like to Congrats Michelle and her Husband,the newly weds the best of luck in everything you guys do and stay true ;)

tried to learn swimming today after work..boy was it crazy..having difficulties to lean it thou :s haha..i feel chlorin-ish (if theres this word) i almost swallow the water while trying to take a breathe..daym ,my tongue feels wierd..:s maybe i`ll continue to learn to swim again soon..if i have time that is :s i realise swimming is fun thou..too much stress on my mind..swimming helps to ease it thou..

and yes.. i dont know how to swim..so?

Baby, I Miss You

It`s been days since you`ve been gone..everythings,going wrong...how i wish you were here by my side..just like old times..

when i saw this picture right here..my heart broke into pieces..words cant explained how much it hurts to see you getting hurt...

not referring to this hot chick(smokin~) right here..


But,


To This Babe Right Here...
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My women got hit from behind on monday, kena main belakang tia....it was hit by an indon guy along Jln Telanai..it was obviously the fool`s wrong, but he tried to put the blame on me..well,sorry asshole..i`m not 'Akon' so you cant put the blame on me..ya dig? apparetly the indon guy is just a driver..his boss a haji brought a friend along...who talk a lot of shyt in front of me.. like;

He:*looks at my car*
He: eh, keretamu ada modify kah, karang polis nampak susah karang..
Me: No

My shyt, you dont have to worry.Thank You very much for your concern..i`m more worry bout my car`s survival rate than anything.. even if a not girl strip naked in front..i wont even give a daym.. well,maybe take a quick peek haha . This is the first time i got into an accident(never wanted it),so it was kind of a shocking. the first thing i said to the indon guy was ' what the fuck' as i get out of my car..spiaking london lol . After minutes of bullshitting,the police came..file in the report..i told them the incident,then second is the indon guy..

indon-guy: the guy can go one but he refuse to go and he brake
policeman: oh,really?
indon-guy : yea..thats why this incident happened..it`s because of him
policeman: i see.....
policeman: story finish? so, it`s the right way to drive?

the indon guy was blur there...like he had a wtf sign on his head. Long story short,he`s not suppose to go so near my baby`s ass and he didnt look properly when he step on the paddle..

Now, most important thing is that.my baby`s back to me now..her ass is as bootylicious as before,period.

Funny things is that..on the second day, i dreamnt that my car was already fixed..so the third day i went to see my car..it was really fixed!! man, super happy was i that time..mathafcker!!!

It`s been a few weeks,since i`ve been searching for a book called 'The Rose That Grew from Concrete'

The poems are written by the late rapper Tupac when he was 17 years old..there were about 71 poems combined together..i cant find it in Best Eastern :( oh well,if you cant find it there..then i guess theres no way you can find it in other book stores in brunei :s

I manage to find some of his poems online..a samples of it...

In the event of my Demise by Tupac

In the event of my Demise
when my heart can beat no more
I Hope I Die For A Principle
or A Belief that I had Lived 4
I will die Before My Time
Because I feel the shadow's Depth
so much I wanted 2 accomplish
before I reached my Death
I have come 2 grips with the possibility
and wiped the last tear from My eyes
I Loved All who were Positive
In the event of my Demise

I Cry by Tupac

Sometimes when I'm alone
I Cry,
Cause I am on my own.
The tears I cry are bitter and warm.
They flow with life but take no form
I Cry because my heart is torn.
I find it difficult to carry on.
If I had an ear to confiding,
I would cry among my treasured friend,
but who do you know that stops that long,
to help another carry on.
The world moves fast and it would rather pass by.
Then to stop and see what makes one cry,
so painful and sad.
And sometimes...
I Cry
and no one cares about why.

The Rose That Grew From Concrete by Tupac

Did you hear about the rose that grew from a crack in the concrete?
Proving nature's law is wrong it learned to walk with out having feet.
Funny it seems, but by keeping it's dreams, it learned to breathe fresh air.
Long live the rose that grew from concrete when no one else ever cared.

And Tomorrow by Tupac

Today is filled with anger, fueled with hidden hate.
Scared of being outkast, afraid of common fate.
Today is build on tragedies which no one want's to face.
Nightmares to humanity and morally disgraced.
Tonight is filled with Rage, violence in the air.
Children bred with ruthlessness cause no one at home cares.
Tonight I lay my head down but the pressure never stops,
knowing that my sanity content when I'm droped.
But tomorrow I see change, a chance to build a new,
build on spirit intent of heart and ideas based on truth.
Tomorrow I wake with second wind and strong because of pride.
I know I fought with all my heart to keep the dream alive.

Fallen Star by Tupac

They could never understand
what u set out 2 do
instead they chose 2
ridicule u
when u got weak
they loved the sight
of your dimming
and flickering starlight
How could they understand what was so intricate
2 be loved by so many, so intimate
they wanted 2 c your lifeless corpse
this way u could not alter the course
of ignorance that they have set
2 make my people forget
what they have done for much 2 long
2 just forget and carry on
I had loved u forever because of who u r
and now I mourn our fallen star

A young heart with an old soul by Tupac

How can there be peace?
How can I be in the depths of solitude
When there are two inside of me?
This duo in me causes the perfect opportunity
To learn and live twice as fast
As those who accept simplicity...

Ambition over Adversity by Tupac

Take ones adversity
Learn from their misfortune
Learn from their pain
Believe in something
Believe in yourself
Turn adversity into ambition
Now blossom into wealth

In The Depths of Solitude by Tupac

A young heart with an old soul
How can there be peace?
How can I be in the depths of solitude
When there are two inside of me?
This duo in me causes the perfect opportunity
To learn and live twice as fast
As those who accept simplicity...

Can You See the Pride In the Panther by Tupac

Can You See the Pride In the Panther
As he grows in splendor and grace
Topling obstacles placed in the way,
of the progression of his race.
Can You See the Pride In the Panther
as she nurtures her young all alone
The seed must grow regardless
of the fact that it is planted in stone.
Can You See the Pride In the Panthers
as they unify as one.
The flower blooms with brilliance,
and outshines the rays of the sun.

If you are down with him,you`ll get the idea of his true-st thoughts and feeling...just close your eyes and pictured what he painted for you..I CRY,was the one that captured my attention.i felt what he was trying to share with me,although i cant fully fell his pain..it aint easy standing strong,when you feel like the whole world has turn its back on you..your alone and you have no one to turn to..CHECK this link,it`s a lyric called 'Thugz Mansion' in there..if u see clearly..there are a few people he mentioned such as 'Marvin Gaye,Jackie Wilson,Sam Cook,Billie Holiday and Malcom' the first 4 are great singers..i would have never know them if i didnt look at his lyrics.. and Malcom is someone who fight for his own community.. so yea..i`ll stop here. scared that u might get bored lol..

Make-Up Kit... A Powerful Tool

After seeing this pictures...now i would be very careful when meeting pretty girls.. dont get what i mean? check this out

The Pretty Gurl In Make Up

The Gurl WITHOUT Make Up (No offence,she looks like a guy :s...like the one guy from stephen chow`s movie who always dig his nose)

HARD to believe right?

I`ll show you hows they do it..

Make-up kit is such a powerful tool...i have to be very careful from now on..lol..know what im` saying, Mr Ang C.K? haha also goes to the guys out there