tried to learn swimming today after work..boy was it crazy..having difficulties to lean it thou :s haha..i feel chlorin-ish (if theres this word) i almost swallow the water while trying to take a breathe..daym ,my tongue feels wierd..:s maybe i`ll continue to learn to swim again soon..if i have time that is :s i realise swimming is fun thou..too much stress on my mind..swimming helps to ease it thou..

and yes.. i dont know how to swim..so?

Baby, I Miss You

It`s been days since you`ve been gone..everythings,going wrong...how i wish you were here by my side..just like old times..

when i saw this picture right here..my heart broke into pieces..words cant explained how much it hurts to see you getting hurt...

not referring to this hot chick(smokin~) right here..


But,


To This Babe Right Here...
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My women got hit from behind on monday, kena main belakang tia....it was hit by an indon guy along Jln Telanai..it was obviously the fool`s wrong, but he tried to put the blame on me..well,sorry asshole..i`m not 'Akon' so you cant put the blame on me..ya dig? apparetly the indon guy is just a driver..his boss a haji brought a friend along...who talk a lot of shyt in front of me.. like;

He:*looks at my car*
He: eh, keretamu ada modify kah, karang polis nampak susah karang..
Me: No

My shyt, you dont have to worry.Thank You very much for your concern..i`m more worry bout my car`s survival rate than anything.. even if a not girl strip naked in front..i wont even give a daym.. well,maybe take a quick peek haha . This is the first time i got into an accident(never wanted it),so it was kind of a shocking. the first thing i said to the indon guy was ' what the fuck' as i get out of my car..spiaking london lol . After minutes of bullshitting,the police came..file in the report..i told them the incident,then second is the indon guy..

indon-guy: the guy can go one but he refuse to go and he brake
policeman: oh,really?
indon-guy : yea..thats why this incident happened..it`s because of him
policeman: i see.....
policeman: story finish? so, it`s the right way to drive?

the indon guy was blur there...like he had a wtf sign on his head. Long story short,he`s not suppose to go so near my baby`s ass and he didnt look properly when he step on the paddle..

Now, most important thing is that.my baby`s back to me now..her ass is as bootylicious as before,period.

Funny things is that..on the second day, i dreamnt that my car was already fixed..so the third day i went to see my car..it was really fixed!! man, super happy was i that time..mathafcker!!!

It`s been a few weeks,since i`ve been searching for a book called 'The Rose That Grew from Concrete'

The poems are written by the late rapper Tupac when he was 17 years old..there were about 71 poems combined together..i cant find it in Best Eastern :( oh well,if you cant find it there..then i guess theres no way you can find it in other book stores in brunei :s

I manage to find some of his poems online..a samples of it...

In the event of my Demise by Tupac

In the event of my Demise
when my heart can beat no more
I Hope I Die For A Principle
or A Belief that I had Lived 4
I will die Before My Time
Because I feel the shadow's Depth
so much I wanted 2 accomplish
before I reached my Death
I have come 2 grips with the possibility
and wiped the last tear from My eyes
I Loved All who were Positive
In the event of my Demise

I Cry by Tupac

Sometimes when I'm alone
I Cry,
Cause I am on my own.
The tears I cry are bitter and warm.
They flow with life but take no form
I Cry because my heart is torn.
I find it difficult to carry on.
If I had an ear to confiding,
I would cry among my treasured friend,
but who do you know that stops that long,
to help another carry on.
The world moves fast and it would rather pass by.
Then to stop and see what makes one cry,
so painful and sad.
And sometimes...
I Cry
and no one cares about why.

The Rose That Grew From Concrete by Tupac

Did you hear about the rose that grew from a crack in the concrete?
Proving nature's law is wrong it learned to walk with out having feet.
Funny it seems, but by keeping it's dreams, it learned to breathe fresh air.
Long live the rose that grew from concrete when no one else ever cared.

And Tomorrow by Tupac

Today is filled with anger, fueled with hidden hate.
Scared of being outkast, afraid of common fate.
Today is build on tragedies which no one want's to face.
Nightmares to humanity and morally disgraced.
Tonight is filled with Rage, violence in the air.
Children bred with ruthlessness cause no one at home cares.
Tonight I lay my head down but the pressure never stops,
knowing that my sanity content when I'm droped.
But tomorrow I see change, a chance to build a new,
build on spirit intent of heart and ideas based on truth.
Tomorrow I wake with second wind and strong because of pride.
I know I fought with all my heart to keep the dream alive.

Fallen Star by Tupac

They could never understand
what u set out 2 do
instead they chose 2
ridicule u
when u got weak
they loved the sight
of your dimming
and flickering starlight
How could they understand what was so intricate
2 be loved by so many, so intimate
they wanted 2 c your lifeless corpse
this way u could not alter the course
of ignorance that they have set
2 make my people forget
what they have done for much 2 long
2 just forget and carry on
I had loved u forever because of who u r
and now I mourn our fallen star

A young heart with an old soul by Tupac

How can there be peace?
How can I be in the depths of solitude
When there are two inside of me?
This duo in me causes the perfect opportunity
To learn and live twice as fast
As those who accept simplicity...

Ambition over Adversity by Tupac

Take ones adversity
Learn from their misfortune
Learn from their pain
Believe in something
Believe in yourself
Turn adversity into ambition
Now blossom into wealth

In The Depths of Solitude by Tupac

A young heart with an old soul
How can there be peace?
How can I be in the depths of solitude
When there are two inside of me?
This duo in me causes the perfect opportunity
To learn and live twice as fast
As those who accept simplicity...

Can You See the Pride In the Panther by Tupac

Can You See the Pride In the Panther
As he grows in splendor and grace
Topling obstacles placed in the way,
of the progression of his race.
Can You See the Pride In the Panther
as she nurtures her young all alone
The seed must grow regardless
of the fact that it is planted in stone.
Can You See the Pride In the Panthers
as they unify as one.
The flower blooms with brilliance,
and outshines the rays of the sun.

If you are down with him,you`ll get the idea of his true-st thoughts and feeling...just close your eyes and pictured what he painted for you..I CRY,was the one that captured my attention.i felt what he was trying to share with me,although i cant fully fell his pain..it aint easy standing strong,when you feel like the whole world has turn its back on you..your alone and you have no one to turn to..CHECK this link,it`s a lyric called 'Thugz Mansion' in there..if u see clearly..there are a few people he mentioned such as 'Marvin Gaye,Jackie Wilson,Sam Cook,Billie Holiday and Malcom' the first 4 are great singers..i would have never know them if i didnt look at his lyrics.. and Malcom is someone who fight for his own community.. so yea..i`ll stop here. scared that u might get bored lol..

Make-Up Kit... A Powerful Tool

After seeing this pictures...now i would be very careful when meeting pretty girls.. dont get what i mean? check this out

The Pretty Gurl In Make Up

The Gurl WITHOUT Make Up (No offence,she looks like a guy :s...like the one guy from stephen chow`s movie who always dig his nose)

HARD to believe right?

I`ll show you hows they do it..

Make-up kit is such a powerful tool...i have to be very careful from now on..lol..know what im` saying, Mr Ang C.K? haha also goes to the guys out there

Out of the blues..my ex chatted with me..surprising indeed..cause i know she was mad at me..and the first few lines i can see she`s being a fake ass..

then we talk about the relationship

after that,she told me her 'bf' is 21 years old

the 'well that good' answer, i was refeering to the 'we are happy answer' but her ego was too fast..she said the last two sentences..

I thought what thing she come and chat with me..thought she has some problems and needed help..eventhough break up still can become friends right? i dont mind helping a friend in need,i`ll try to help..no doubt about it...mana tau, come to me with all this rubbish..bitch please,get a life la..u think i would get jealous or unhappy over this shyt?? Lol, to tell u the truth..i was laughing all the way while chatting with you..best believe that! i really hope that she would ask me out and tell me this.. straight to my face..so i can act very sad and give this i regret-leaving-you-look but deep down inside i`m laughing my ass off...

You may think i`m cruel or mean..either way..i`m being myself..you bitch with me..i`ll bitch with u..thats wht way it goes... and i believe in karma..what goes around comes around...

It`s been a year plus..i thought you have move on and grew from everything..to be a better person in another words.. but tonight shows that..ur still the same old you,u still dont know what to do,the words you say,the way you behave,indicates your still the same old you..in another words, ur still have that immature thinking..then i dont know how to help you...

Something Nastyy...

wtf is that?

John Cena Raps?

No hatin..but this looks scripted..dont you think? haha