what should i do? i dont even know.. it`s one of the things i ever wanted.. but i know one day i have to let it go..cause it aint healthy.. for now,i`ll keep holding on and be ridiculous strong.. it is what it is..


#Cancer men usually fall for women who need to be save; Damsels in distress this is your man. <--wow...sometimes i think the man up there know what im thinking n i turn around he speaks whats in my heart...which i dont express often.. the more i think of it, the more i feel sour..n the urge i feel like i wanna take a smoke badly.. which i stopped 2 months plus ago.. i REALLY need to hold on to my words otherwise what would i be? i cant even keep onto my words.. i dont wanna be a disappointment ... u may not ever see this but.. i gave u my words. imma try my best to guard it tight.

is it true that u need to learn to love yourself first before u learn to love others?

Lord, i guess i`ll never know...

i`m cleaning my facebook friendlist..seems like i have some random stranger in it.. Hmm..i find some that i used to talk to like a lil close..somehow, we dont talk no more..how u ever felt this shyt before? its like one day ur good the next thing u know ur like total stranger.. wtf is that suppose to mean? i dont get it sometimes..

And some are beautiful girl friend whom i never even talked to... my, what have i been doing all these years? oh well, its time to move on...there are so many beautiful girls out there..its impossible for you to know them all... we as humans cant be greedy..accept what you have and appreciate it..

I went for hiking these two days..everything is great..i able to maintain my stamina n all..i`m happy with it..i only need to get in shape..need to go to the gym..i`m thin n fat at the same time..not sure if u get my drift..haha. it`s all good..

I just watched the movie 'Friends With Benefits' i find it nice..i can say that is it better than 'no string attached'.. whereas no string attached is more of comedy and friends with benefit..it based on comedy n more of the serious stuff on a person`s life..as in, 'insecurities' if thats the correct word for it.. i guess sometimes we dont really know what we have until its gone.. and i learned that every girls wish to have something related to what they see in movies or a fairytale..its their dream.. little things we do..does brighten up a person`s day as well..

Sometimes i find girls like those in movies are rare to find?

i`m happy that im able to control my temptation not to smoke for 2 weeks now.. hope i could hold on to a very long time..i realised my air intake is better than before.. and i promised not to smoke already..coz what are words if u say it but u didnt mean it.. so i`ll try my best to stay true to my words..

i posted this status on my facebook 'Scientist suggest that a men will fall in love approximately 7 times Before marriage' a friend asked me..how many time have i fall in love... i replied 'haha..i dont know' real ans is..i`ve never fall in love...i only reached the 'like' level..coz my relationship never lasted more than a month or a month n a half.. coz it seems i fell for the wrong type i guess..i`m jus blaming on myself.. mine`s all messed up man... till i dont feel like i wanna get into a relationship.. i`m tired of getting hurt..u know what? 'Just because your not committed in any romantic relationship, it doesn’t mean it could keep you away from heartaches.' <- #real talk

i`m an old skool guy... i`m classic,rap,hip hop n pop all rap into one joint.period.

Brrr...

dont wanna be in love...hurts like a ma-fucker..it`s oways the ones that i like n interested in and wanna get serious..end up different from what i expected.. my love life is full of fucking surprises.. *sigh*

fuck some of those singers who sing those love songs until so pitiful..comeon man, it`s either u love me or i love u secretly or triangle love or ur love ones died..overall same format... every single or album all about pitiful love..as if the whole world is love sick... jigga plz!

how about more happy songs? comeon,son

economy crisis..fuel price increase.. n u telling me to hear love songs? Gtfoh!

p.s : m back,bitches!

RAIN DANCE!!!

i feel like typing something in here..since i havent done it a LLOONNGGGG time!! i know :) it`s super dead... but somehow i duno what to write,cause there`s a lot in my mind that i cant describe.
i was thinking about writing something which i`ve been thinking about lately..such as..life,whats happening in the world,hate..racism etc.

Hopefully i can job in down in a paper n post it in here..but that depends if i got the time n mood 4 it or not haha..n btw it`s gonna be in 'rhyme' .In case y`all dont know..i like to rhyme..not trying to be a wanna-be, but i`m just spitting it on how i see n how i feel cause its real(opps i did it again)...

Being able to rhyme or rap..is defenitely a blessing =) i proud to have a lil of that talent..

And lastly.. i need inspiration..about what i said above..can anyone give me the motivation n inspiration that will keep the ideas coming in.so i can..lay it down 4 y`all to see, so u can see hows it gonna be in the e.n.d

cant u see the struggle that we`re going through,
i don`t think u have a clue
u just keep on doing what u always do

you dont really seem to care
living ur life like it`s ok
it stressed me to see things got this way
it`s pissed me off you gave broken promises

i`m always in a rage whenever i think of it
i thought you will change for a better benefit
but it seems like your the same old you
one day,u`ll hear me say i HATE you...

there was a time i wish i could drive fast n kill myself to end it all
so i don`t have to bother with it anymore
so i dont have to look at you and tell u the same shyt over again
coz i know you dont feel the pain

i wanna get away from this zone
n go to somewhere where i belong
i have hands n legs
i can take care of myself
so u don`t have the feel bad and hurt that it started
because of you
if you know you`ll regret why started it in the first place?

i still dont know if you learn your lesson( i dont think you do)
i dont know if you will ever regret...
still,right now..i`m sick n tired of you

i need a fcking break...too much on my mind till its pressured, its like the container almost cant fill anything anymore...how long can i take this? i need a vacation or something.. need to go to somewhere i belong...

Something caught my attention the other day..the news regarding the fatal accident of the France AirFlight 447. Here`s another side news of it;

An Italian woman who arrived to the airport late for the fatal Air France flight 447 has died in a car accident, according to ANSA news agency.

Johanna Ganthaler, a pensioner from the Bolzano-Bozen Province (South Tyrol, Italy) and her husband, Kirk, were on vacation in Brazil and missed flight 447 after arriving to the airport late. They were able to board a later flight and avoided being victims of the horrible crash.
The couple rented a car in Munich, Germany and decided to drive home to Italy. On their way home, while driving through Kufstein, Austria, their car ended up in the opposite lane and they had a head on collision with a truck.

The woman died at the hospital that she was taken to. Her husband is still in critical condition.

Talk about some 'Final Destination' shyt, yo.now thats SCARY!! :s and the movie is dropping soon.

Things ain`t going well in the family..for quite a long time..i don`t really know how to start, really..this is the only place that i can say out anything...my happiness, sadness and everything..

The reason i wrote is down is because it`s kept in my heart for so long and it`s getting sour. i have no choice but to release it..

As days and years pass by, u`ve been watching me grow..from a baby to a child to a teenager and to a man..it`s been 20 plus years and your still holding on and your 90 plus..i do wonder if i could live until that old age sometimes, as time passed by ur memories gets weaker and fragile..u`ll get angry at small things and u`ll forget what u said..bottom line is..i`m afraid it`ll get worst..coz i know when a person gets old..they will have a kind of old people diseases,

i`ve been told that my grandma has been seeing things..about someone looking for her..which never happened.at first i didnt care what she said..coz maybe she was dreaming..but my uncle came from malaysia today..to visit my grandma to see how shes doing. mom told him about the story that my grandma saw someone (someone she knew) waiting for her outside the house.. what we believed is that..it`s 'those things' that transformed itself into someone she knew to look for her.. as i heard this, i honestly say.. i was scared,SAD and feeling goosebumps..coz i know that the answer is quite true..coz she changed a lot compared to lasttime.. it made me realised something..that i had never spend much time with her before..i believe i need to do my job as a grandson..i dont wanna regret..i know when that day come..i wont be able to take it..its too much.

Last nite was fun..me n group of friends went to see Brunei`s DPMM football team Vs The Singapore Young Lions. The vibe and the excitement was there..but the performance was not as expected.It wasnt a good nite..was raining in the middle of the game..was i got wet. To be frank, it was the first time i went to watch the game live.it turned out alright hehe. people shouting n swearing all side of the corners over silly things..it was funny...and if the referee is an indian..it`s over~and ball boy kids wearing oversize t-shirt n pants lol.At the end of the game DPMM won 1-0
and on the side not MAN U WON!! :D yeehaaa!

Apart form that.. i went to see all my male friend`s brother 'Edison Chen' in his new movie 'The Snipper' now if u put aside edison`s sex scandals thingy...the storyline was good.i give it a 6.5% rating.y`all should try to see this movie..and the funny thing is,there were only a few people watching this movie in the cinema, like less than 10 people..i guess his scandal still affects the movie..i wonder how other contries response are :s

I wanna watch Transformer2! Megan Fox is in it...fcuk shes hot!! geezes~

Shit i`m getting f.a.t
it`s getting crazy,
with all the food i`m eating
somebody stop me!!

This Kid Is Funny

A Video For Everyone

This video is for those who are down,discourage and feel hopeless..



I hope that this video will enlightened you.
Stay Strong, Keep Your Head Up
There`s A Struggle Everyday, Gotta Roll On
God Don`t Like Ugly And God Don`t Like Quitters

Just to let you know that i`m still alive and well as usual..no the blog is not dead..i`ve been busy and i somehow lost a little of the inspiration to blog... someone, please INSPIRE ME!!!

Would You Have A Shower With These Two Jap Girls?

I dont see why not..

Discovering Myself

I took a quiz to know about myself...and i have to say..this shit`s so true..wth..
Links here.try it

I need inspiration and mood...

Ladies and Gentlemen.. i give u the next sensation..other than Keong a.k.a Mou Meng, here is it..Melvin a.k.a Brown Bear,singing a song for you..



Soon,we might have a remixes of both of the super duper singers ;) stay tuned!